On my way

So the day has finally come. I am sitting at my gate at John Wayne airport in OC waiting to board my plane and have about an hour to do a whole lotta nothing. And those who know me know that when I have idle time on my hands I think, which sometimes isn't a good thing.

Yesterday/last night was pretty hectic and quite an emotional day. A person that I still love dearly is no longer in my life and hasnt been for about 4 weeks now. For some reason all these emotions with regards to that person/relationship and my trip all came flooding into my brain at once and made yesterday rather difficult to get through. On one end, I am excited and anxious to get to NY and see if all the hard work was worth it. I am looking forward to seeing my friends out there as I have not been back since my birthday in 2007. On the other end I am overcome with a sense of loss and a small amount of closure with regards to that certain person. While I do think at this point in our lives it is best we are not together, I cant ignore how strongly I feel about them. They should have been the one to take me to the airport to wish me luck. They should be the one I cant wait to tell all about the trip. But unfortunately thats not how things are playing out right now. But I am moving forward and trying my hardest to forget about that person so that I can be strong and focused on myself and my goals. However things play out months from now I need to focus on the present and myself, FINALLY!

So on to the travelling part. I can see why fewer people are flying these days. Aside from the really good deal I got on the ticket to NY I cant help but notice how the airlines and airports nickel and dime you to death once they have you in their clutches. I had to pay $15 to check 1 bag, which on a RT ticket adds $30 to the total cost to fly. I paid $5.99 for wifi access at the airport since I had an hour to kill and wanted to stay busy doing something other than focusing on the food court and massive amount of horrible food options at my fingertips. I just find it amazing the amount of little charges they hit you with within a short amount of time. What's next, a charge to use the bathroom? That'll be $1 to pee and $3 to do "other" business :)

I must admit, in spite of the ridiculous procedures and fees I miss traveling. I used to travel much more than I have over the past year and is one of the reasons I am glad that modeling has become an option for me once again. I like the idea that I could be in a different city/country many times per year. While I do call SoCal home and always find myself back here I do love the cultures and people I have been exposed to through my travels. I think the reasons for me being the way I am stem from travelling abroad at a young age. I was able to see things/people/places outside the SoCal bubble and they helped shape who I am and helped me appreciate how good we have it here. Maybe thats why I get a little agitated and restless if I havent gone SOMEWHERE outside of SoCal every few months.

So my adventure officially begins. This is an exciting time and I welcome what comes next :)


xoxo Chrissy